an acronym that sounds like something teeny bopper texters are zapping back and forth…
but in my world, it means a HUGE step in our adoption progress…our Letter of Approval (shortened from the real name, which is Letter of Seeking Confirmation from Adopter = LOSCFA…goodness. add in our I-800. I-800A. I-864W. Artical 16. DS-230. DS-1981. and the list goes on…the vast number of forms and form names that make no rational sense in the adoption process is mind boggling.
but this…the LOA. the text messaging name. it’s my favorite.
you know why? because i have been dreading it. it’s a HUGE step, but because of our living situation, we are still waiting on a second homeland security approval in order to return our signed LOA. i have been hoping and praying the homeland security would come in first. but it hasn’t. so now, i will pray for faith. for an added abundance of faith. faith that God has this under control. that we aren’t behind. that we won’t miss a single possible day without our daughter. that i can release my heart racing palpitations. that the earth rocking anxiety pains i am feeling will subside. that i can stop shaking with nervous anticipation.
this is a blabbering post…but i need to document it for me. for emery.
i’m coming for you, sweetie.
your Father has not forgotten you.
i can’t do anything to change this process.
i can’t do anything more than i am doing.
i’m letting Him do the rest.
and i’ll come for you right when i am supposed to.
my sweet sweetie pie.
today i cried a lot for you.
i cried because i don’t have you.
and maybe you are crying because you don’t have me.
soon and very soon…we can cry together…tears of joy at our family complete.
it is a day that will be sooner than i realize. yet still too far away.
LOA. Love of Adoption. because no matter how hard or difficult or confusing, it leads me to you. and i love it.
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Those are some of the most beautiful letters…I’d say they are thee best but TA trumps LOA 🙂 So happy for your beautiful family. Praying your immigration stuff gets resolved soon and you have your babe in your arms soon!!!
hi stacy! thank you for your kind words! your family is SO beautiful! i love your story and your words of love to your kids…i can feel your love overflowing! blessings to you and your amazing family!!
I love how you documented your feelings, even if they feel rambling. You captured your heart, and the heart of so many parents who wait for the process to bring them to their children.
Hoping your process goes quickly!
hi stephanie! you are so sweet! i so appriciate your kind words! blessings to you!
angie
I love how your heart just spills over in your words here to your baby girl. So looking forward to following your journey to her!
my dear friend…i love walking this journey with you 🙂
They are BEAUTIFUL letters, aren’t they?!?!
Congrats to your beautiful family.
hi andrea! i just spend a LONG time on your blog reading about you and your wonderful family! i am so inspired by you and your passion and perserverance and your amazing kids! what a joy it is to read all that God is doing in and through your family!!! blessings to you!!
This kind of “pregnancy” is just as emotional as any. You have said it well with your words to your girl. Waiting and praying with you for the day you hold her in your arms.
Congrats on your LOA! We just got ours too!