Less than 12 months ago, I was a mom of two bio kids.
Today, I have three bio and one adopted.
It did not come easy.
I will not lie and say I did not toss and turn about it.
I prayed and prayed for timing for us and for the child.
I asked God to make me willing.
I asked God to open my heart.
I went to Haiti.
With my own two eyes, “I saw.”
I saw so much beauty, pain, but all came wrapped in need.
My heart was so open, I left wounded.
I wanted to run somewhere and pretend I had not seen such life.
I wanted to forget stories I heard.
I wanted to forget eyes that looked at me with hope.
As much as I wanted to.
I chose to not.
I came home and tossed and turned some more.
A lot more.
I thought of the boy I met.
I thought of what would be best for him.
I thought of the babies I carried.
I thought of the sound of roosters.
I thought of the sound of children laughing.
I thought of the lady I met on a random walk lifting her shirt to show me her hungry belly
This article really spoke to me because we are in such a similar situation! We originally started with Haiti but ultimately moved to China because we felt it was a better fit for us. We are currently LID and hoping for a referral this coming week. Thanks for sharing!
This might be the best adoption related blog post I have EVER read because of it’s simplicity and honesty and yet it’s complexity. I don’t know if this is what everyone goes through, but I could have written this post at least as far as the thoughts and emotions are concerned….but I would have mucked it up in the writing. Your simple words were POWERFUL! WOW……this is one I will share!