There we were, going through another miscarriage. I began wondering if it was wrong for me to continue to pray to God for a baby. Afterall, if parenthood wasn’t in God’s plan for us, we didn’t want to be outside of His divine will for our lives.
But, what would I do with the gaping hole in my heart aching to be filled by a baby!?!? My empty arms and aching heart were sobbing ~ at moments even SCREAMING ~ for God to talk to me!
Didn’t HE put this strong desire to be a mommy in my heart!?? WHY wasn’t He answering my heart’s cry?!? Was I being disobedient for continuing to seek Him for a child, if His answer was consistently “NO”?
Jeff believed we should stay on our knees and seek the Lord. I began to wonder if it was even worth asking for, if God had no intention of bringing us children.
I wondered if I was being selfish in my continued prayers for what God didn’t seem to want to bless me/us with. God assured me one night, through Jeff, that YES! He wanted me/us to continue to seek Him and pray for the desires of our hearts! He wanted us to continue to pray for our children and wait for Him!
Psalms 27:14: “Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.”
After reading an article one night, Jeff paraphrased for me the difference between expectancy and expectation. He doesn’t recall now where he read it, darn it! I wish I could credit who helped answer such a mystery for me! Allow me to share with you how learning such a difference freed me to keep praying amidst our unanswered prayers!
God wants us to lay the desires of our heart at His feet. He wants us to pursue these desires with confidence in Him. Not confidence in our ability to reach these dreams, but confidence in His ability and willingness to answer our prayers! He yearns to bless us abundantly! His plan for us is GOOD! ALWAYS!
Matthew 21: 22: “And what you ask for in prayer,
Debbie, thankyou for such an honest post. I will remember how you explain the difference between Expectation vrs Expectancy! Such a great word.
I hope your wait for your child/ren will be swift!
Cheers,
Roberta
I just wanted to say I loved this post. My wife and I have been trying to have a baby for about a year. We would pray and wait but as my wife would say always one line never two. It hurt to watch as three of our 19 year old unmarried family members became pregnant, and to hear the stinging question of well when are you going to pop one out? Like we were not trying or so something. The reason for me posting on this is that 4 months ago another unwed part time church goer comes up with ultrasound pics of their new baby. I could feel the anger and hurt coming up from my wife so I pulled her away and we left. Now the important part is that during the service before this our pastor had been preaching about not giving up and how it could be that one last prayer that fills the cup and pushes it into the overflowing level. As the service was closing he walked right beside my wife and me and said I just feel like someone’s prayer is being answered right now. He did not know our situation and did not look at us. ANYWAY when we got home my wife took a test and there were two lines!!! Our baby will be born on Oct. 31st and that is a whole different story about the date, but I share this with you because I want you to know that God is not a respector of persons and what he does for one he will do for the other. You have the revelation keep the expectancy that God is going o do something great. Your Isaac will come. Much love and blessing on you and your family in the name of Jesus Christ.
In His love,
Chris
I read this book entitled “The Shack”. It explained the difference between expectancy and expectation. Its my favorite book. Helped me change my perspective in life and in God. You should try to read it too. Very inspiring.